For Krishna ❤️
12:20 AM
Me type kar rha hu tab 12:20 AM, Monday, 18 May 2026 h. Idk y sab thode time ke baad mujhe chord dete h… like friends, relatives, even parents… and you ❤️ Sayad me hi har jagah extra attach ho jata hu aur fir end me akela reh jata hu. Har baar sochta hu ki iss baar koi nahi jayega… lekin fir wahi ho jata h.
You???
Mere liye kabhi kewal “you” nahi thi. Me tujhe apne aap se bhi jyada manne laga tha… apni family se bhi jyada. Kyuki jab ye log nahi the sath me, tab tu thi. Teri presence hi meri aadat ban gayi thi.
Feelings ❤️
Me kabhi bata hi nahi paya ki me kitna pyaar karta hu tujhse… Na kabhi bata paunga… Kyuki sayad me nahi rahunga batane ke liye. Mene bohot baar type karke delete kia apne feelings ko. Dar lagta tha ki kahin tujhe burden na lagne lagu.
Broken Inside
Subha me chalti bike ko gira dunga, accident ke jaise dikh jayega sabko… aur me bhi free. Sayad fir kisi ko meri kami feel ho ya na ho, pata nahi. Bas itna h ki ab andar se bohot thak gaya hu. Mujhe sayad apne parents aur tujhse attention chaiye thi jo ab nahi mil payegi kabhi… isliye mujhe ye karna padega.
Only You
Me bas kisi ka important banna chahta tha. Lekin har jagah replaceable feel hua hu. I wish ki agli baar me sabka favourite banke aaunga… Khaas karke tera. Jaisa tujhe chaiye… ek dum perfect.
Next Life
Aur next life me aaj se jyada kosish karunga ki tu meri ho aur wapas na jaye. Iss baar agar kami reh gayi mujh me, toh agli baar usse bhi theek karunga. Bas ek baar bina conditions ke tera hona chahta hu.
Truth
Me kamjor nahi hu… Bas kuch chize bohot hurt kar gayi. Aaj tumhara ye breakup karna, third person ki baato me aana, suddenly change hona… Ye sab itna sudden tha ki samajhne ka time hi nahi mila. Kal tak jo apna lagta tha aaj wohi unknown jaisa feel hua.
Efforts
Mene sab try kia. Mene apna sab tujhe diya — saare efforts, sara time, complete heart and mind. Lekin tumne aaj mujhe ek toy jaise feel kara diya. Jab jarurat thi aa gayi, nahi thi toh “future” bolke chali gayi. Wapas jarurat thi 4 mahino baad “present” bolke aa gayi… Aaj wapas “future” bolke ja rahi… wow.
Permanent ❤️
Kabhi kabhi lagta h kya mera pyaar sirf temporary comfort tha tere liye? Kyuki mere liye toh tu permanent thi. Mene tere movies ya books ke characters jaise banne ke liye din me kewal ek bari khana chalu kar diya… Kyuki me chahta tha ki har type me main perfection dikha saku tujhe. Me literally khud ko change karne laga tha tere liye.
Perfect
Bas isliye kyuki me tujhe lose nahi karna chahta tha. Mene hamesha se tujhe apne liye perfect mana. Kabhi bhi ye nahi bola ki, “Krishu agar tujhme ye aur acha hota toh sahi hota.” Teri har chiz mujhe apni lagti thi. Teri imperfections bhi mere liye perfect hi thi.
Memories
I hope mere marne ke baad km se km bhulogi nahi ki ek Ravi naam ka bhi tha koi… jo bina mile bhi itna pyaar karta tha. Jo tere ek reply ke liye poori raat wait karta tha. Aur jo tujhe khone ke darr me khud ko khota gaya. I wish tumhe mujhse jyada acha ladka milega… “perfect”. Jo me nahi ban paya kabhi.
Last ❤️
Tumhare sath jitna bhi time rha wo mera best time tha. Suna tha ki mil jaye toh mitti, na mile toh sona… Lekin tum mili thi tab bhi mere liye sona thi, aur na mili toh bhi sona ho. Tere sath wali memories kabhi buri nahi lagenge mujhe. Chahe end kitna bhi painful kyu na raha ho. Krishna!! I love you sweetheart ❤️🥺 Tu meri life ka sabse soft part thi. Aur sayad hamesha rahegi. Your suar — Ravi